teaching new tricks to an old dog

im the old dog. i wonder how long will it take for me to learn to play a short and simple piece on the piano. the c-d-e-f-g notes for the right is totally opposite of that on for the left. and i dont recognise the notes that are some on space while some on lines. gosh, what have i got myself into? i always remember an old fren's comment that "i've bitten more than i can chew". and i tend to be like that. but ironically, i dont think it is a bad thing becos ive always believed in perseverance. i am a stubborn creature so i dont quite give up on anything i want. having said that, many times ive given up on things i thought i want. for instance; many people are shocked or surpurised that im not gonna teach. cos this time last year, i was gonna teach. but i thought i better try out before committing. hence i went to take a nite course that is for a year. having committed to the course, many of my frens thought that i will teach. but the truth is-- the real situation is really unlike the ideal. sure, i am patient and loving and ah-hem, am a great model for the young, but it is really too much work. perhaps it is our local school's situation where one teacher handles 15 children. you know, the moment you step into school, leave your bag, you are working non-stop. till whatever time, 6 or 7. there is no time for you to pee. sure there is but you gotta hurry. before some kid bites another. whatever the case, i apologise for misleading any of you that i would teach. i really thought i would. but right now, im just happy to be doing marcom. i love business, trade and commerce. i have merchant blood. yesterday, we were at a presentation to pitch for a project. i walked out feeling really satisfied. no, i didnt do the presentation, it was my colleague. im not up-to-standard really. and i wonder when the hell will i be competent to do a presentation on my own, handle client on my own. i can never have that kind of confidence. how how how? ok before i start to feel lousy about myself, i wanna tell you abt the good feelings i had. you know when you absorbed a lot of knowledge, you have this sense of fulfillment? you feel really happy that your mind has been nourished? it's mental food for me. i was very satisfied. we had big silly idea-- to propose a fire festival in singapore. but our client liked the idea becos it was big and they want a big bang to announce their presence. before i know it, some fire crackers went off outside. funny. who's playing with crackers? oh the boss. the company was sold to a petroleum company for dunno how many millions. no wonder the boss celebrates. i would. if my company is being bought for millions, i can take a break for a while. do you know that once you've become a millionaire, having more millions will be easy? becos if you've made it once, you would know that repeating it is possible. the cross-over effect is profound as i was told. the difference in having $9,999 and $10,000 is not that $1. it is the feeling of having $10,000. so it's the same for ever $100K, $1000K. i love it when i learn and absorb from a person or from a situation. i think i am hungry for growth. that's why desite my impossible income at this moment, i am totally at peace and happy to "work for free". here, i am able to make ideas come true. concepts, ideas etc, move them along -- and voola! an event, a product or whatever has been born. i enjoy that.